Banging The Ivories

November 30, 2006


The 9 year old piano prodigy who lives next door is as disciplined as they come. A cute, shy kid. When you speak to her, she always turns so her hair will cover her eyes. Then she utters a barely audible, ”Hi.” A typical day finds her doing the musical scales, then she breaks into a classical piece of music. Mozart. Beethoven. Brahms. Bach. Just some of her favorites.

An only child in a Chinese household, her parents are very strict, but thoroughly decent people. When she hits a sour note, I hear them shouting in Chinese. I don’t know what they are saying, I can only imagine that it’s not, “Play it again Sam.” She starts the piece all over again until she can play it all the way through without mistakes. I have nothing against self-discipline, in fact I live by it, but too much can make you a little loopy. You gotta break away from it every once in a while.

The little prodigy knows this. She has a cheeky side too. A very cheeky side. Sometimes when she plays, it sounds like a dirge -- a funeral march. Sad. I wonder what goes through her mind while she pounds those keys. Some days she doesn’t seem to enjoy it. Other days, she lets loose and plays with fluidity. She doesn’t get to play with other kids. When she comes home from school, she goes straight to that black box and plays. For hours. She takes a break to eat and then she’s back at it.

While her little fingers are banging the ivories, I hear the wheels in her little head churning. I can feel her Soul trying to escape from the rigidity -- from the black and white prison that sits before her. She longs to join kids her own age, whose laughter and playfulness haunt her while she pounds on the door to escape, hoping to one day pick her fingers up and run.

The metronome ticks like a time bomb. Like the beginning of “Killer Queen,” by Queen when Freddy Mercury warbles,
“She keeps her Moet et Chandon in a pretty cabinet. 'Let them eat cake,' she says just like Marie Antoinette....”


I don’t know what her parents are planning for her, but I could see her playing at Nordstrom in an black evening gown with satin elbow gloves. Nordstrom is somewhat of an old fashioned department store that has the piano in the middle of the store near the escalators and viewable from all three levels. It’s kind of nice hearing it when you’re shopping. It makes you want to stay in the store longer and spend more money and possibly put tips in the glossy tip jar.

I think the pressure to be a prodigy gets to her and that is when her cheekiness strikes. They all came back from grocery shopping the other day and as soon as they got in, she was playing seconds later. Her parents went down to the car to get the rest of the groceries. I was shocked at what came next.

I thought Jerry Lee Lewis had broken in because I heard the piano intro to, “Great Balls Of Fire.” Yes, you heard me. The “You shake my nerves and you rattle my brain,” Jerry Lee Lewis. I’ve seen enough Time Life Music commercials to recognize Jerry’s music. It was like she was echoing his sentiments.
“...You broke my will, oh what a thrill, Goodness gracious great balls of fire...”


She went totally off the page in a rage. Her parents were in the garage for about five minutes and right before they returned, she returned to business as usual. This time she played with fierceness, like the angst that had built up in her 9 year old world had just been released. How does a 9 year old classical music prodigy know of Jerry Lee Lewis? She must have seen those same late night commercials that I had seen.

A rebel is among us. Her parents are none the wiser. They don’t know what happened in that five minutes -- but I do -- and now all of you know too. Let’s keep her secret safe shall we. I think she has a secret life. A real “Killer Queen.”

“Caviar and cigarettes/Well-versed in etiquette/Extr'ordinarily nice/She's a Killer Queen/Gunpowder, gelatine/Dynamite with a laser beam/Guaranteed to blow your mind anytime/To avoid complications she never kept the same address/In conversation she spoke just like a baroness/Met a man from China went down to Geisha Minor...”

I can see the bestseller now. Memoirs from a Jerry Lee Lewis Loving Wicked Piano Playing Prodigy Geisha. See, I told you, when you’re too disciplined, it can make you a little cuckoo. I must have too much time on my hands, but that’s another song, but then again discipline can be fun.

Self-discipline is a great spiritual aid, however all work and no play makes Jack a dull boy. Take note: A balanced life is the key to life. (No puns intended.)

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Ice Ice Baby

November 29, 2006


Daybreak. Cold morning air blows through my nostrils down to my chest. My nose freezes. Joints stiffen. I pull my coat tighter. Gotta get the circulation going. Gotta bring it back. To my body. Face. Lips. My teeth. They begin to chatter. I bite my lip. Blood. Dripping. My tongue covers the spot. Weather. Freezing. England? No, this is Los Angeles. Sunny L.A. The weather has taken a sudden turn for the worse.

Now we’re like every other city with real seasons. The winter of discontent. Flowers resemble snow cones. Some have keeled over. Light frost on the lawn. Freezing the grass into place. Not even the gardener can blow it away with that blower they use. It was outlawed in California, but snuck its way back over the border. Gardeners play that wicked game. Blowing debris over to the neighbors. One blows it and the next day the other blows it back. Dueling gardeners. Coming to a reality show near you.

My feet are cold. My hands are like ice. I hate when I can’t feel them. Feels like I have no fingers. Must remember to wear gloves. Where are my gloves? Wear my gloves. Check suitcase. Last time I had them I was in London -- slipping on sidewalk ice. Have to protect my hands. My writing hands. Have to keep them warm. Have to play air piano. Keep the circulation going. Going but not gone. Opening and closing my hands. Cracking my knuckles. Circulation.

What’s the windchill factor anyway? Summer is over. The sun has got his hat on. A beanie. Probably gloves too. Leather. What’s the temperature? 46 degrees Fahrenheit. Here, anything under 70 degrees Fahrenheit is considered shivery. The hard nuts still walk around in their wifebeaters and shorts. God, I sound spoiled don’t I? Most people would kill to be in this weather. Kill.

I can’t complain. I won’t. Bitching is not an option. It’s not me anyway. I’ll be inside the warmth soon. Warm air. Melting the layer of ice that has gathered on my cold skin. I know how a penguin must feel. They don’t complain. Yeah, summer is definitely over. At least for a day. Stepping out to get the newspaper can be Hell -- on ice!

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Black Water

November 28, 2006


It was a thick black liquid oozing out of the faucet. Very black. Like velvet. It could have been anything. Coffee. Black tea. Ink. Mud. Oil. There I was diligently washing dishes, contemplating life’s strategies when suddenly clear water from the tap turned to black. Hoping there wasn’t some kind of leak in the pipe, I quickly turned the water off. I turned it on again and the same thing. Blackness. The kind that creeps into the Soul of man.

Now my brain was working on some wild theory that everyone in the building must have thrown leftover turkey into their garbage disposals and some kind of way the disposal backed into the mainline causing black water. But I am not a plumber -- and certainly not a seasoned theorist because even as I write this theory, it sounds farfetched.

I checked all of the faucets and water sources. They were even blacker. Maybe we did strike oil. Black gold. Texas tea. Beverly Hillbillies style. God please let it be oil. Then I could do all of the things I want to do. Oh yeah, I am. Scratch that. Then I could help everyone else fulfill their dreams. Please let it be oil. I could live in that fabulous house that Jed Clampett bought after he moved to Beverly Hills. Please let it be.

Then I hear this voice.

“Don’t beg. I don’t like begging,” God says.

“You don’t have to beg. All you have to do is snap your fingers and it’s a done deal,” I retort.

“Is that what you think I am? A genie?,” he says.

“No, you’re not a genie, but you can be one if you want to be,” I explain.

“Haven’t you learned anything? I don’t have fingers. I’m not in the physical form. I am a force that exists within the human spirit. That’s not to say that I can’t come down there and... “, he chides. Remember the three O’s of God and Oprah isn’t one of them. Though she thinks she is. I’ll sort her out later,” he adds.


“Okay, Okay, I get it. You’re God.” You are Omnipresent. Omniscient and Omnipotent,” I reveal.

“Now you’re back on track. Get on with the story my dear, I don’t have all day. Well, I do, but I don’t want to hang out here all day. I have mountains to watch you humans move. Places to go, people to see, money to collect, karma to rectify. I have a full schedule. I don’t even have time for golf anymore. Don’t you think you should get on with it before you lose your readers? I'm sure some of them have already scrolled to the end,” he laughs.


Wait, what’s that loud noise? Sounds like a truck. Let me look out of the window. It is a truck. A DWP truck. Department of Water And Power. Whoa. That was a loud bang. And another one. And another. Sledgehammers against metal.

Reverberating. Moving. Breaking. Shaking things up. Putting things back together. Us. Against the world. Against God. With the world. With God. Magnets. Attracting. Repelling. God. Attracting. Repelling. Yeah, that’s life. Everything including the kitchen sink.

Ten minutes later, the water was clear. Must of been a blockage somewhere. Maybe in my head? Isn't that just like universe? Throwing something at us without warning. Had there been a warning, I would have been prepared, but we can’t prepare for the unpredictable. It just happens. Actually we do prepare for the unpredictable all of our life, we just don’t realize it.

I guess even pipes have to be purified for better things to come. Those pipes must have had a lot of bad karma. A lot. Or just karma. Neither good nor bad. Just neutral. The human consciousness makes karma good or bad by attitude and will.

Yeah, black water and God is shaking us. Waking us. Making us. Before taking us. Black is the new God.

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After Effects

November 27, 2006


Just coming out of a relaxing Thanksgiving. Not too many people. Small intimate group of friends reminiscing and prognosticating -- in that order. There is always something you wish you never did and something you wish you had.

After the meal, we all went for a walk to walk off that turkey and stuffing and to counteract any feelings of drowsiness that may occur after inserting food into mouth. The streets were empty, like a deserted film set. No cars. No stores open. No other people. Except one.

A homeless man was walking going about his business. As we walked, we crossed his path. He looked up surprised. He wished us a "Happy Thanksgiving."

It wasn't a wish with an ulterior motive. It was just a wish of goodwill. A gesture that was out of the blue. Some homeless people will say what they think you want to hear to get money, but this one was different. He genuinely wished us a "Happy Thanksgiving," and continued down the street.

It felt like it was important for him to express what was in his heart. He wanted to make sure we heard him. He stopped. Made eye contact. Bowed his head and went on his way. He was happy and he shared his happiness with us.

It seems simple, but I was touched by the gesture. Homeless people have feelings too. Not only do they experience hunger, they experience love, loss, sadness and goodwill. For that moment, he shared his life with us. A pure moment in time. For that moment, he wasn't a homeless man scrounging for food or looking for a handout; he was just like us. Human with a Soul.

It's what you do on Thanksgiving. Share your life. Your dreams. Your love. It's a nice feeling, sharing and forgetting the stresses of your life. I think that we should have the sentiments of Thanksgiving daily. Why wait for once a year when people feel forced to spend time with family. Do it verily and oft.

Though Thanksgiving for this year is 'officially' over, Happy Thanksgiving now.

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Knowing Why

November 26, 2006


"He who has
a why to live
can bear with
almost any how."

~Friedrich Nietzsche

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Joy Kiss

November 25, 2006


“He who binds to himself a joy
Does the winged life destroy;
He who kisses the joy as it flies
Lives in Eternity's sunrise.”

~William Blake

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Friday Gratitude - Thanksgiving

November 24, 2006


Hope everyone is having a wonderful Thanksgiving weekend and you got a chance to exercise your heart as well as your mouth. Let’s not lose the momentum of gratitude. Without it, we would be stagnant creatures waiting for life to happen.

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Happy Thanksgiving

November 23, 2006


The sentiment of the day says it all.

Be thankful. Grateful. Gracious. Peaceful. Giving. Heartfelt. Healful. Tender. Loving. Sharing. Your true nature as Soul.

Have a great day and make a lasting impression with the love in your heart.

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Cheesed To Meet You

November 22, 2006


The holiday season is definitely here. I can tell by the number of cookware ads, especially fondue sets. Do people really buy these? If so, who are they? I don’t know any of them.

Every year around this time stores plaster fondue ads across their glorious four color glossy pages. They also have numerous ads for fancy cookware. They must think that people only cook once a year and since they only cook once a year, they’ll need new cookware. What do they after they cook? Throw the cookware away?

The fondue set ads are the funniest. They show a ‘family’ who looks like they’re being tortured. They dip their long fondue forks into a huge vat of cheese or chocolate or both. The sauce is warmed by tea lights.

The term "fondue" comes the French "fondre" (to melt.) Fondue was popularized in the 1970’s invented so old cheese and bread wouldn’t go to waste.

Residents of isolated mountain Swiss villages had to rely on locally made food which was scarce in the freezing winters. They found that melting stale cheese made it edible. Later wines and seasonings were added. Much to their delight, even dry and hard bread tasted delicious after it was swirled in the creamy mixture.


Cheese fondue wasn’t common until the 1950’s when the stagnant Swiss cheese industry needed a way to increase sales. Fondue was a perfect solution, permitting a diner to consume a half-pound of cheese in one sitting.

So now that you have a little history on fondue, does it make you want to buy one? I thought so? I’m putting my shoes on right now to run right out and get one. That’s what the marketers would love to hear, I’m sure, but no. I’ll sit this one out. To those manufactures who try to sell their wares to me during this time of year, try again next year and please don’t try to sell me something that will only wind up in the trash the next day.

Sure you’ll get your money, but it will only leave a bad taste in my mouth -- and I will remember that taste next year when you wheel these things out.

Call me old fashioned, but I like food that is already prepared on the plate. No dipping. No spilling. Just eating.

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The Countdown

November 21, 2006


At the library today. Having trouble with my ISP again. Lots to do before the end of the year. Haven't even thought about shopping. I saw on the news what happened when people were lining up to be the first to get PlayStaion 3. At one mall a gang of boys rushed the front of the line and slammed one man into a flagpole. Broke his nose. This time of year seems to bring out the best and worst of people. Like Charles Dickens said,

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness..."

All this just to be the first to get a game? Something's wrong here. And it's not cheap. PlayStation 3 hits the street at $600. Some people are selling them on eBay. One man sold his for $5,000. Where do these people get $600 or even $5,000 to spend on a game that's going to be in favor for a split second? Priorities.

Stores like Target and Wal-Mart are in competition for our business. It's funny seeing how the big guys fight. Not with might or skill, but with dollars. Personally I prefer Target over Wal-Mart; it's a much better experience. Wal-Mart is not my cup of tea. It seems more like entering a prison -- dark -- crowded, as opposed to Target which is bright and cheery. I prefer stores with bright lights, wide aisles, baskets that glide easily, friendly cashiers -- the things Target seems to have.

I think I'll do all of my shopping online. I'll avoid the crowds, long lines and the parking space shuffle. Finding parking spaces makes people go crazy.

Yeah, the holidays should be renamed to the holi-craze. It's crazy. Just crazy.

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Blood And Beer

November 20, 2006


The scene from the balcony was bizarre. The sound woke me up at 3:30 am. I had just gone to bed an hour earlier. I went to the window. Two teenagers were fighting outside on the sidewalk. Though I was five flights up, it sounded like they were in my living room.

There’s a new bar and grill down the street that attracts teenagers. Teenagers trying to fit in. Teenagers trying to be cool. Fake I.D. in hand. Teenage ritual. Drinking. Getting drunk. Falling down.

Punches were flying everywhere. People watching. Grunts. Groans. Blood. Beer. Police sirens. Scattered feet running everywhere. Jumping into cars. Burning rubber. Sirens get closer. Teenagers. Teenagers who can’t hold their liquor. Liquor that can’t be held responsible. Teenagers run to separate cars. Blood is left on the sidewalk. Blood and beer.


Soul bashing. Two Souls battling it out. Battling wills. Battling life. Trying to be the last one standing. Mortal combat. Nobody gets out of here alive. Nobody wins tonight. They were both knocked out. Lucky to be alive. Lucky they left before the cops got there. Lucky.

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Kind Time

November 19, 2006


"You cannot do a kindness too soon,
for you never know how soon it will be too late."

~Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Our Deeds

November 18, 2006


"Our deeds determine
us as much as we
determine our deeds.

Blessed is the influence
of one
true,
loving human
soul
on another."

~George Eliot

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Friday Gratitude - Thankfulness

November 17, 2006


Courtesy of My Daily Insights

BE THANKFUL
By Unknown

Be thankful that you don't already have everything you desire.
If you did, what would there be to look forward to?
Be thankful when you don't know something,
for it gives you the opportunity to learn.

Be thankful for the difficult times.
During those times you grow.
Be thankful for your limitations,
because they give you opportunities for improvement.
Be thankful for each new challenge,
because it will build your strength and character.

Be thankful for your mistakes.
They will teach you valuable lessons.

Be thankful when you're tired and weary,
because it means you've made a difference.

It's easy to be thankful for the good things.
A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who
are also thankful for the setbacks.
Gratitude can turn a negative into a positive.
Find a way to be thankful for your troubles,
and they can become your blessings.

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The Sun Shines For Everyone

November 16, 2006


Though it’s winter, in California we are still experiencing summer weather. In fact, old man winter rarely makes an appearance here, he knows he is not welcome. People still wear shorts and T-shirts this time of year. It’s even common to see mail carriers, UPS and Fed-Ex guys in shorts.

An ice cream vendor usually strolls down the street ringing his little bell to alert children that he is here. He’s like the Pied Piper because when he rings that bell, kids come out of the woodwork and clamor for the latest sweet treats.

Yesterday he was doing his usual rounds. As I was getting my mail, he passed by ringing. I looked up and I noticed his bright T-shirt. He nodded his head and smiled. It read,
'The Sun Shines For Everyone.'

It was perfect. His T-shirt said it all.

Even in the throes of winter, there’s always a bright spot. Find your sunshine everyday, you don’t even need sunblock.

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Spread Your Wings

November 15, 2006


I love words. In fact, words are my favorite pastime. Besides the fact that I need them to write, I like the origins of words. It’s like having an extended family where everyone comes from a different country; sort of like blogging. Without words, we would have to resort to grunting and pointing -- and that’s no way to live. Some words can make your mouth do weird things, while others barely cause you to open your mouth.

I have subscribed to A.Word.Day, a great little sight that sends words daily. My word of the day is albatross. Now I know what an albatross is, but I didn’t know the other meaning behind it.

Albatrosses are birds after my own heart, well, not literally, but highly efficient in the air, using dynamic soaring and slope soaring to cover great distances with little exertion. I like doing as much as possible in as little time as possible.

Colonial in nature, albatrosses nest for the most part on remote oceanic islands. Pair bonds between males and females form over several years, with the use of ritualized dances, and will last for the life of the pair. Now that’s a real commitment and something humans can heed.

Albatrosses have an amazing wingspan. The largest great albatrosses are the largest of any bird, exceeding over 11 feet or 340 cm. They are known as "the most legendary of all birds."

Samuel Taylor Coleridge mentions them in, The Rime of the Ancient Mariner. An albatross is also a metaphor in a poem of Charles Baudelaire and has another meaning. Someone with a burden or obstacle is said to have ‘an albatross around their neck,’ which is the punishment a mariner gets for killing an albatross. This spawned the myth that sailors believe it was disastrous to shoot an albatross. Although sailors regularly killed and ate them, albatrosses were often regarded as the souls of lost sailors.

To make a long story short, I just want you all to know that even if the albatross is beautiful, you don’t have to carry it around your neck. Don’t carry burdens and be sore, be free of burdens and soar.

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The High Road

November 14, 2006


It’s happening again. I’m looking at SUV’s. (Sports Utility Vehicles) Thinking about buying one. Happens every year. After five years of driving a Honda Civic, I am contemplating trading it for one of those sleek, mean machines. I feel a little guilty about possibly leaving my Civic. She’s been so good to me. Always there when I need her. Taking me here and there like an obedient little slave on wheels, but those SUV’s are bekoning.

I went to a test driving event where I tested several SUV’s. All the latest models. One way to put them through their paces. There are more SUV’s in California and Texas than anywhere in the world. I don’t like the oversized ones though. A bit too boxy; especially the Hummer.

Though I would never buy a Hummer, I still took it for a test drive it. The track was huge. It was set up to simulate “real world” driving. A 10 foot dirt incline was at the end of the track for the Hummer. One man ascends and stops almost at the top. His face is as white as a sheet.

He chickens out at the last minute and the Hummer goes rolling back down the hill. His wife really lets him have it for giving up. Poor guy, I feel sorry for him. He would probably hear her wrath all night. Hell hath no fury like a woman. How does a 10 foot dirt incline simulate real driving?

California governor, Arnold Schwarzenegger is responsible for the Hummer’s popularity in this country. He was the first to own one in 1992 after convincing manufacturers to make them for non-army purposes. Even had a fleet of them worth $950,000, until he found out that Hummers emit three times more carbon dioxide than cars. He gave them up; at least while he’s the governor.

Finally it is my turn to test drive. I pick a yellow Hummer. For insurance purposes, an employee has to ride shot gun. I strap myself in and start accelerating slowly. I stop at the bottom of the hill and stare at it. It stares at me too. We stare at each other and acknowledge our roles.

Am I going to let it intimidate me or am I going to put that hill out of it’s misery? That hill represents the obstacles in life that people face everyday. Sometimes all we have to do is psyche ourselves up to conquer those immovable objects. I can do this. I have to do this. I will do this. Deep breath. Calm. Relaxed. Ready. Are you ready?

I race the motor. Vroom. Vroom. Dirt blows onto the windshield. “In your face, the hill insinuates. The hill is toying with me. This doesn’t stop me. I use the windshield wipers and show the hill who’s boss? Vroom. It’s show time.

The employee beside me looks a bit nervous. I back up about 10 feet. Stare at the hill. Ready. Set. Go. I put the pedal to the metal and start climbing. The vehicle tilts upward to a 45 degree angle. Like an airplane on take-off. Tires spinning. Dirt flying everywhere. And I’m over it.

The hill doesn’t know what hit it. It happens so fast. Too fast. I want to do it again, but everyone can only do it once, otherwise the line would be around the block. When I get out of the Hummer, dirt is all over my face and in my eyes. That hill had to get the last word in. I turn to look back at it. It’s been decimated to at least three feet now. I think I may have had the last word there.

I did it. We did it. One less obstacle. I conquered it. Made a molehill out of a mountain. My neck, back, and shoulder are stiff. Must have been the adrenaline rush. See, I told you. Once you put your mind to something, you can do it.

I had to rethink my desires. Do I really want an SUV? They burn more gas, take more room on the road and cost more to insure. My Civic is barely broken in. Only 27,200 miles on the clock. Traffic has increased in L.A. over the last couple of years and sometimes I can’t get further than first gear because of it.

I can’t leave her now. She has many good qualities. Though an SUV would make me sit higher on the road, I don’t need an SUV to take the high road. I am already there. I conquered the mountain and had a great experience. Life is an adventure. Let’s ride.

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Flying Bull

November 13, 2006


Grocery shopping last night. Midnight. Favorite time to shop. To think. No distractions. No crowds. No whiny kids demanding sugary sweets from embarrassed parents. Pure bliss baby.

I pick up my Pellegrino and place it in my basket. This stuff is good. Really good. Comes from a layer of rock 1,300 feet below surface. Supposed to be unique trace elements underneath the rock. That’s what they say anyway. This water’s been around for 600 years. Leonardo da Vinci even drank it and called it “miraculous.” Been in this country since 1908. Personally, I like the way it rolls off the tongue. Smooth. Best mineral water I’ve tasted.

Standing at the end of the aisle are a man and his little girl. I hear him call her Ashley. They look just alike. Spitting image. The man is putting a case of Arrowhead in his basket. Those tiny ones that look like baby bottles. Ashley wants to take them to school. Ashley is a cute girl. About 7. Brown eyes. Wavy brown hair. Wearing a blue velvet dress and shiny black patent leather shoes. A little lady. Very protective of her father.

The man picks up a case of Red Bull and puts it in the basket. Ashley shouts in that helium baby voice, “Don’t get that daddy.” “Why?," he says. “Because I don’t want you to fly away.” Ashley adds.

She is referring to the ad where the slogan is “Red Bull gives you wings.”

There’s a crispness in the innocence of a child. The unfiltered truth that flows from their heart. The way they look at you with wonder. With questions. With hope. Ashley’s father tells her that he is not going to fly away. “It’s just a commercial, it’s not true darling,” he reassures her. She stares at him with a priceless preciousness that’s marvelous to witness. The Red Bull is promptly removed from the basket -- by Ashley.

She has him wrapped around her finger. It’s a little girl’s right to wrap her father. A father is the first man a girl knows in her life. The relationship with him sets the stage for relationships with any men thereafter. It’s a primal reckoning.

Red Bull seems to have come out of nowhere. Suddenly it appeared and now everybody’s drinking it. I’ve seen kids as young as 8 toss a few back. Ashley and her dad continue down the aisle. While he pushes the basket, she grabs his hand and doesn’t let go.

Red Bull is from Austria and marketed as an “energy drink." Initially, Red Bull provided "cool" college students with free cases of the drink, and then convinced them to throw parties with the elixir. They even have student reps on campuses passing the stuff out like water. A very sugary water that makes you bounce off the ceiling. Doing Bull shots has become the next “cool thing,” next to drinking alcohol and becoming legless.

In 2001, the drink was investigated by the Swedish National Food Administration after being linked to the deaths of three consumers. Sale of Red Bull is prohibited in Denmark, Norway, France and Uruguay. Due to the link with taurine, local authorities categorized Red Bull as a medicine. Only energy drinks without taurine are sold in France. Until late 2004, its sale was prohibited in Canada. In Ireland two hurling players died after drinking Red Bull at half-time in a club game.

I had a choice to make. To remember what Ashley said to her father, or think of Red Bull marketing. What Ashley said will last much longer than a Red Bull high.

Ashley doesn’t realize that she did her father a huge favor. That stuff will kill you. Ashley knew a very important rule of thumb: honor thy parents not thy rock stars, athletes, actors, or anyone because they are famous. The people who bring you up and instill completeness, honor and dignity into your spirit and into your moral fabric are the ones that deserve your praise.

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Note To Self

November 12, 2006


"A man without ambition
is dead.
A man with ambition
but no love is dead.
A man with ambition
and love for his blessings
here on earth is ever so
Alive."

~ Pearl Bailey

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Intersection

November 11, 2006


"Every man is more than just himself;
he also represents the unique,
the very special
and always significant
and remarkable point at which
the world's phenomena intersect,
only once in this way, and never again."

~Herman Hesse

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Friday Gratitude

November 10, 2006


I am starting a new Friday tradition on this blog called, ‘Friday Gratitude’ Every Friday I will list what I am grateful for. I encourage you all to do the same. Gratitude is the key to unlock your true gifts.

I speak about gratitude a lot because I think many people overlook it’s supreme power. It is the simplest, yet single most powerful thought process that takes a split second to complete. And the benefits are abundant.

Gratitude gives you a fresh perspective, a vantage point and a new pair of eyes in the dark. Examine your life. Look at it’s colors, shape, form and texture. Listen to what it’s telling you. Understand the strings that were pulled to bring you to life. Understand it well. You are very fortunate to have won God’s lottery. Gratitude is a way that you can recycle the love and compassion that has been given to you.

Gratitude is a never-ending cycle. The more you give away, the more you receive, but it’s not about the receiving, more about giving.

I am grateful for...

waking up.

experiencing the purest love that still
amazes me to this day.


the method in which God opens the vault
to reveal the truest treasures.


not being alone in thought, consciousness or purpose.

being an interactive part of your life.

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Flex

November 9, 2006

We are a living organism. Billions of microscopic pieces working together to benefit our physical body -- a single body of cells, tissues, organs and systems. Some of us work hard at maintaining an attractive outer body, but we neglect our inner body -- the one that really matters.

There are around 640 named muscles in the human body - in addition to thousands of smaller (unnamed) muscles. The function of a muscle is to produce force and cause motion. You may say that the Soul too is a muscle. Although technically it is not an organ, it is still a conscious organism that needs you to function. To produce movement. To flex.

Your Soul is in perpetual motion to entice you into clear consciousness. To bring you to a level when you can rise above mental and emotional debris. To soften the harsh blows of life and alleviate earthly pressures. You can relieve your pain instead of reliving it. You can mend a heart, instead of breaking one. You can dry a tear, instead of making one. You can build someone up, instead of tearing them down. Make someone’s day. Give someone a good memory.

Love is the only reason we are here. We are nothing more than a shell before God fits us with a Soul. Let us love like we have never loved before. Flex your inner muscle. Go on, make someone’s day.

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The Knives Have It

November 8, 2006


Watching late night T.V. can be very entertaining. It’s a different brand of T.V. when it’s dark. As I turn the channel, I am yelled at, spoken to in several different languages, asked if I’m looking for God, time travel to the 70’s, invited into Rod Serling’s night gallery and Alfred Hitchcock’s chambers, told about Larry Lizardlover (a man who legally changed his name to Lizardlover because of his love for the leathery looking creatures), and finally a bright-eyed fellow named Josh barks,

“Stay where you are. We have something really special to show you. You’re gonna be happy you stayed for this one. After the break.”


Hooked, suddenly my finger stopped pressing the remote. Hurry up commercial, I want to see what it is.
“Okay as we said before the break, you’re gonna love this.”


Then Josh from the shopping channel, (yeah, I know there must be something in a woman’s hand that always finds shopping. I assure you, this time it was a fluke. For real.) pulls a black curtain down to reveal a wall of knives. All kinds. Big ones. Small ones. And all in between.


This is what Josh told me was “special?” Knives. I was as excited as a rusty nail. What was Josh trying to do to me? Why did he want me to buy knives? He shows me a fishing knife and he explains that I can skin any fish alive with this particular knife. Then he shows a silver and turquoise pocket knife that can double as a key chain. Wow. Hold me back. Serling and Hitchcock won’t be happy when they hear I traded them for Josh.

My trigger finger presses the remote. Nothing happens. Either the battery was tired or it wanted me to walk the five feet to the T.V. So I did what anyone one in my position would do? Started banging the remote on my hand. “Come on. Work. Work I said.” Bang! Still nothing. Now Josh grabbed a Samurai sword from his display and started swashbuckling with his cohort John.

It was Josh’s plea for me to stay with him. I could hear him singing that K.C. And The Sunshine Band song through the T.V. “Babe, I love you so. I want you to know. That I’m going to miss your love. The minute you walk out that door. So please don’t go. Don’t go away.“

”Oh Josh, you say the sweetest things, but I don’t like knives,” I retort.


He wails, “If you leave, at least in my lifetime, I've had one dream come true. I was blessed to be loved by someone as wonderful as you.”

"Josh, you’re making me blush. Look at my cheeks. The ones on my face," I giggle.


I couldn’t turn away from Josh, not since he was so complimentary and all. I guess he doesn’t get much of an audience at this ungodly hour. After his swashbuckling demonstration was over, he showed more swords, daggers and knives. The cheapest one started at $275.

Were these swords the weaponry for the 21st century?
I can see it now. Millions of prepubescent boys swashbuckling like Josh. Josh was the hero of a new generation. The generation of young pirates. The Captain Jack Sparrows and the Will Turners of tomorrow need these swords to right all of the injustices in the world and to protect their own Elizabeth Swann. Johnny Depp, Orlando Bloom and Kiera Knightley eat your hearts out. Josh is in town and he’s taking no prisoners.

You guys are funny. What is it about men and knives? You guys seem to have a relationship with these steal pointy things that’s inexplicable. Knives get the old testosterone going and kicks up the machismo. Maybe knives for men are like shoes for women. It doesn’t matter how much they costs, if we want ‘em, we get ‘em.

I guess knives represent something primordial in man. The need to protect. Whether it’s watching, The Three Musketeers, The Lord Of The Rings, Conan The Barbarian or Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon, swords transport us to a time period of nobility, chivalry and courage. Anyone who uses a sword must follow the rules of the blade: Do not draw without reason, do not sheath without honor.

That’s kinda like life. The battles we pursue are in direct proportion to our consciousness.

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Madison Avenue Hates Me

November 7, 2006


They try so hard. They work overtime. Just to get my credit card number. Trying to sell me things I don’t want. The other day I get a package from Amazon. A wok. Really good one. 2.5 mm heavy gauge carbon steel. Flat bottom. No wok ring needed. Welded wooden handle. With that little loop to hang it -- and a helper handle. The real deal. Could have gotten one that was pre-seasoned, but I prefer seasoning it myself. It’s a rite of passage to season a wok.

Fire it up. Peanut oil. Paper towel. From the bottom up. Wax on. Wax off. From top to bottom. Wax on. Wax off. Smoke. Burning steel. Hot. Smoking. Patina. Cool. Good patina makes stir-fry taste just right. A real spiritual experience. Making it into something it wasn’t before. Woking it into shape.

Toughening it up. Able to withstand whatever I throw at it. A seasoned pro. Like God shaping us into who we are. Moses parting the red sea.

“Without God I am nothing. I am the tool by which he works his will. The steel has been tempered. The metal is ready - for the Maker's hand. Behold his mighty hand.”

In the bottom of my box, I find the darlings of Madison Avenue -- advertising. Tons of it. A package is the last bastion of free ad space. Isn’t it? Right there along with the foam peanuts and bubble wrap. LOVE bubble wrap. Good finger workout. All in the wrist action. Ads the size of postcards.

Orbitz...Hertz...Cooking.com...Visa...and other ‘mail prostitution.’ It’s in my box so that means I pay for it. I pay for advertising? Amazon gets ad revenue and I pay for it. I like Amazon, but this stunt makes me want to cancel my account.
Canceled my eBay account when they started emailing me ad ‘specials.’

This kind of aggressive advertising is annoying. Challenges my spiritual design. I don’t like ads taking up the space in my head or my box. Don’t we get enough ads? Pounding our ears. Slapping our faces. Splashing our eyes. One guy even tattooes his head with an ad for a cold medication. I don’t want to see a picture of a runny nose on the back of his shaved head. Ads aren’t in our heads, they’re on our heads.

And newspapers. Forget about it. Can’t even find a newspaper or magazine without ads taking up space. I know ads are the bread and butter for any publication, but now they are catalogs, with columns reduced to a postage stamp. Pictures are bigger. Words are smaller. People are bigger. Concerns smaller.

What about the ads on cell phones that send text messages begging you to buy? Internet ads. Ads on cars. And those stripper billboards on those flatbeds being driven slowly on city streets at peak hours with flashing headlights. Ray’s strip joint by the airport. XXX. LIVE. NUDE. GIRLS. Come on down. International business men watch ‘em take it off before they take off.

Google's gotten AdWords down to a fine art. Gmail has 'em in the sidebar of my email. To those behavioral economists -- experts who study consumer habits and the economic impact of group behavior -- I am an anomaly. An Enigma. I don’t buy unnecessarily. Well, unless I have to.

Yeah Madison Avenue hates me. Their tactics don’t work on me. Oh, what’s this? $30.00 off my next order upon approval of an Amazon Visa? Hmmmm? $30.00 off? There’s gotta be something I need. Yeah I hate Madison Avenue. Advertising. Never works.

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A Dinghy And A Prayer

November 6, 2006

Be careful of what you write, you never know where it may end up? Case in point. Last week 300 unopened letters to God were found floating in the Atlantic ocean, clinging on for life. Initially they were sent to a minister by his congregation, but he died two years ago and when his house was cleared out, the letters were dumped in the ocean.

Cut to: years later when a Ventnor insurance adjuster, Bill Lacovara was fishing with his son when he spotted a flowered plastic shopping bag and waded out to retrieve it.

"There are hundreds of lives here, a lot of struggle, washed up on the beach,” he said." “How many letters like this all over the world aren't being opened or answered?"

Lacovara curiously sliced a few letters open with his son. They ran the gamut of being funny to being poignant. One man wrote,

"I'm still praying to hit the lottery twice: first the $50,000," then after some changes have taken place let me hit the millionaire."


Other letters were heartbreaking, penned by husbands, wives, sons, daughters, and those aching Souls unburdening themselves to God.

A frightened unwed mother asked God to make the baby’s father fall in love with her and marry her so the child wouldn’t grow up fatherless.

Though the letters were technically unopened, we don’t know if they were read by God? There is so much emotional baggage and pain that we carry, it has to find an outlet before it weighs us down forever.

As an spiritual exercise, write something that’s buried in your heart and release it into the universe. You don’t have to send it to anyone, just know that someone, somewhere will hear your prayers and you’ll have one less burden in your heart.

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Uncomfortable Silence

November 5, 2006


“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.”
~M. Scott Peck

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The Greatest Loss

November 4, 2006


"Life is not lost by dying;
life is lost
minute by minute,
day by dragging day,
in all the thousand small
uncaring ways."

~Stephen Vincent Benét

“Death is not the greatest
loss in life.

The greatest loss
is what dies
within us
while we live.”


~Unknown

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Johnny Walker And The Porsche Part 2.

November 3, 2006


(If you haven’t read part 1, take a moment to scroll down before you read the end of the story.)

Stevie Wonder is just starting to perform on the outdoor stage. He sings some classics, then starts singing, “I Just Called To Say I Love You,” Tristan quickly calls me and holds his cell phone up so I could hear the song. It is so lovely. Brings tears to my eyes.

Tristan tells me that he has another surprise for me. So I respond the same way most people do when they hear they have a surprise, “What is it?” “If I wanted you to know, I wouldn’t have called it a surprise,” he says.

We hang up the phone. I am intrigued about my Tristan goes back into the silent auction room. He overhears a security guard say “surprise.” “Watch the girl in the ugly blue coat, she looks shifty.” Tristan looks over and does a double take. She is his ex. Newly blonde. New implants. In L.A. almost every starlet wannabe is blonde with inflatables. A horrid mutilation that causes more harm than good.

Once so innocent and shy, she looks so different now. Tristan stops. Memories crowd his head. He doesn’t forget. Never mind, that’s spilled milk now. He quickly turns away in silence. He’s not forgetting his mission tonight.

Back to the silent auction room. Tristan goes to Stevie Wonder’s sheet music, gets the clipboard and writes down $1,000. He really wants this. Wants it for me. He stands guard hoping that no one will bid it up. Another man comes and writes down $2,000. Tristan ups his bid to $2,200. Seconds later, a woman bids $3,000. Then another man bids, $3,500. Tristan can’t really go higher, but he bids $4,000 anyway. He’s like that. Shoot first, ask questions later. His heart’s pumping overtime. He’s hot. He can’t relax. He wants this.

He goes back into the auction room and almost has a heart attack. The Stevie Wonder bid is over. It tops out at $30,000. What? How did that happen? Tristan picks his heart up and starts to leave.

As he walks through the den of the wicked, he notices a termite in the hallway heading towards the bar. Termites in this mother of all mansions. The Haves and Have-nots have one thing in common. Termites. Can you believe it? Termites. The great equalizer.

It’s not just any termite either. It is a bad ass termites. Huge. Three times the size of a regular termite. Like it chugs protein shakes and shoots steroids. The Arnold Schwarzenegger in his “Pumping Iron” days termite. All that expensive California wood. Lining the belly of a termite. Now that’s an expensive habit.

As Tristan exits the house, he sees Christina Aguilera getting out of a Porsche 911 Turbo Coupe (a $123,000 car). She too has an entourage of beef cakes. Now if anyone could sing for her supper, Christina can. She once got a gig from a Russian billionaire for $1.3 million just to sing two songs. That’s what you call value for money.

You can tell the stature of any party by the cars. Christina saunters inside through a back entrance to avoid the shutter bugs. Tristan makes his way down the winding driveway and he hears a SKID and CRASH! That’s right. The valet smashes the Porsche. $123,000 worth of twisted metal. There goes Christina’s insurance and another valet bites the dust.

Note to valet companies: Don’t hire 17 year olds. ‘Too Fast. Too Furious.’ Chalk another one up to drinking, driving and getting smashed.

That was Tristan’s surprise. Buying me Stevie Wonder’s sheet music. Although he didn’t win the auction, it was nice to know that he did that for me. Next he shows me a business card he picks up on the way out that read:

“No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted.”
~Aesop

That is cool. Real cool. Tirstan is the man.

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Johnny Walker And The Porsche

November 2, 2006


So my friend Tristan goes to a big Beverly Hills shindig last night.
The usual setting. $25 million dollar estate. Paparazzi hanging out front. Cameras. Clicking. Exploding flashbulbs. Blinding lights. Extreme close-ups. Celebrities with forced, fake smiles. Entourages in black. Drinks flowing. Stars getting tipsy. Business as usual in Hollywood.

It was a charity event with a silent auction. Proceeds go to the City Of Hope. Some of the music industries finest are there. Clive Davis is chilling with Kenny “Babyface” Edmonds and his wife Tracey in a private room within the party. Silhouettes of other ‘stars’ are hard to make out in the dark. It isn’t enough that they are already in a private party. They have to remind themselves that they are important by cordoning themselves off from others who are equally ‘important’ if not famous.

Janet Jackson enters with her massive entourage who must have the night off from their wrestling gig. Janet, with cleavage on display, looks straight ahead, no eye contact allowed. She’s way too important to mix with the little people, but she makes an exception for her man Jermaine Dupri, who stands a smidgen over 5 feet. Janet has to go the bathroom and the entourage goes before her to scope it out and make sure no fans are hiding to ask her why her music sounds like cats fighting.

George Clooney, Salma Hayek, Penelope Cruz, Eva Mendes, and two Bens -- Affleck and Stiller are somewhere in the house networking for their next projects. Tristan mingles with them, not taking celebrity smack from anyone.

Most of them hang out by the colossal pool, dancing to “Promiscuous Girl,” by Nelly Furtado or at the Johnny Walker bar, where they only serve Johnny Walker Blue; the best blended whiskey in the world, or so I am told. At $200 to $350 a bottle, that stuff better be good. If it doesn’t kill you, it breaks you.

Stevie Wonder walks in. Tristan knows Stevie is my favorite, so he tries to snap a picture with his camera phone. Stevie is surrounded by his entourage. Tristan can’t get a clear shot of him without being seen. Tristan moves closer and is ready to take the shot when Stevie’s main bodyguard approaches. “Hey,” he says.

Expecting to be ejected, Tristan braces himself for the worse. He drops his camera phone in his pocket and turns around. The bodyguard repeats, “Hey.” Tristan looks up. “Where the bathroom?” Tristan swallows hard and says, “Over there,” pointing behind Stevie. “Can you show us,” the guard barks.

Tristan leads Stevie Wonder and his peeps to the bathroom. They thank him and disappear. “If only I got a picture,” he thinks to himself. A little about Tristan. I’ve known him from the beginning. The beginning of time. The time before this lifetime. He will do anything for me. He’s that kind of man. One of a kind. A kind man. And unpredictable -- very!

Now he is on a mission. He is not thinking of himself. He is thinking of me and trying to figure out a way let me share the Stevie experience. He goes into the silent auction room and sees various items up for bid. There’s autographed sheet music from David Bowie, Elton John, signed songbooks from Heart, Lenny Kravitz, Melissa Etheridge, Mariah Carey; autographed shoes from Justin Timberlake, Aerosmith and Motley Crue tickets, autographed Fender squire guitars by Bon Jovi, Matchbox Twenty and others.

One item catches Tristan’s eye. Stevie Wonder’s autographed sheet music. He is up to something.

(to be continued)

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You Are Here

November 1, 2006


Today many newborns will be introduced into the world. They won’t know what life has in store for them. They won’t know right from wrong. They won’t even know where they are. Unbeknownst to them at this point, they will meet their destiny.

Today many Souls will leave this place behind and move to new digs. They too will be introduced to a new world. They won’t know what the afterlife has in store for them. They won’t know what an afterlife is. Their karmic rap sheets won’t necessarily be clean, but they will get a chance to start over.

Do you know where you are? Do you know where you want to be? Do you have any idea? Don’t let the mistakes of your past hinder today. Don’t let yesterday become today. Each day is new. Today is a miracle.

You are here. You are breathing. Today is your day.

Every minute is a new world. An opportunity to leave the old world behind. Where are you? You are here. Are you ready to evolve?

Today is your day.

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